ZoeyRedbirdHON

so my mum said that im depressed and cynical and suicidal and a bunch of other things and said that she might put me somewhere...
idk if that would be a good thing or not...
she is probably going to put me somewhere this summer but she hasnt decided yet...

wow. feels like i haven't been on in forever! i've been crazy busy tho
nothing much has happened...
except i'v just been really confused and frustrated lately and i think i might be depressed...
i've also done some things i used to say i'd never do...
it's been tough...
i'm never really happy and it gets worse when i'm alone...
i have severe trust issues so i always keep everything bottled up and i know it's not helping and i should talk to someone but i feel like a journal is better and that's why i'm writing here and in a journal...
it's not helping much but i tend to feel better for a short time afterwards, which is good...
i'm just really lost...

I HAVE FOUND MARK OF ATHENA ONLINE I AM SO HAPPY I AM CRYING AND SCREAMING AND I DONT WANT TO GIVE ANYTHING AWAY BU WHY IS RICK DOING THIS TO MY EMOTIONS WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO MY BABIES BUT OMFG PERCY AND ANNABETH ARE BACK TOGETHER YAY BUT ALL THIS OTHER STUFF IS HAPPENING NO NO NO

EDIT: THE THINGY I WAS READING OFF OF ONLY HAD THE IRST FIVE CHAPTERS ALKHFDJSDHJDSA WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW I CANT WAIT TO GET MY OWN COPY OF MARK OF ATHENA I MUST HAVE IT THIS INSTANT

omfg i was supposed to make up a swim class yesterday but when i went to get changed i couldnt find my swim suit and i tore up my shitty excuse for a gym locker and even the lost and found but my one friend said she saw a swim suit like mine in the locker room and i asked her to put it in her locker if she saw it again and if she didnt find it then i will fail gym then i will not graduate and then i will end up workng at mcdonalds and live with 975836848674382 cats
OR i could bring my bikini and just put a t-shirt on over it but i need to find my fucking swim suit so i dont look like an idiot and the stupid t-shirt will slow me down in the water and i am already slow enough as it is
i a so glad i have books and tv shows and tumblr or i probably would have died already

hello there havent been on in awhile but im not an artist so it doesnt really matter anyways been busy on tumblr and learning the way of photoshop
      i seriously need to stop reading books and watching tv shows cuz i am getting way too into them
       why must writers make flawless characters then kill them i dont have a heart anymore from all these deaths seriously